5:37 pm
Well this day has certainly gone better than I expected! I spent quite a lot of this morning playing Skyrim. Before that I watched Nemesis Game, which wasn't very good, but kind of scary because they kept me thinking something was going to pop out and be scary but instead it was just disappointed. It had some good riddles though, so that was cool. It was a bad idea to watch it before the sun came up though, for obvious reasons so like an idiot I walked through my house turning on all the lights as I went.
It's almost six and I feel pretty good, so hopefully I can make it another six before I crash. The stretch it going to be the next four because I'm not going back to school until 10 pm. That means I probably won't pack until 8:30, or let's be realistic, 9:15. I have to fill these hours or get tired. Maybe I'll fight crime.
11:53 am
Pick up sticks? Ugh, fuckin' more like picking up the tattered remains of my life. Just kidding mostly. As I said yesterday, I'm bulldozing the end of this project by going to bed within the next half hour. I have been up for 20 hours and I can definitely feel it. I started to fall asleep around 8 pm tonight so I made dinner and started to rewatch About Schmidt. It's a really great movie but really depressing because of how real-to-life it is. I love slice of life movies, but they are not movies that will keep you awake. Eating helped and then I rushed around the house packing. The fact that I had to be ready to leave and move back in to school around 9 pm helped keep me up a bit but at this point I'm comfy in my bed and really tired. I don't have to be up until 11 am tomorrow so I'm hoping that I'll sleep for 11 hours or so and balance shit out.
I feel like a time traveler. My body doesn't know when day and night is at this point. Last night when I got tired at 6 pm and fell asleep, it could have been any time of the night because it was dark and I was tired. I had to keep telling myself that it was the beginning of the evening and not the middle of the night because judging by my body's state, it could have been 5 am.
If there was a font for how I was feeling right now, it would be face down on the floor not moving.
I chose the worst time to back up my computer. Only 170 GB left! I could leave my computer on and let it finish but I don't want to leave it on the rest of the night for half an hour's worth of backup.
12:12 am
This is awesome I hope I don't die.
12:15 am
That'd be terrible if I died and they found my computer laying next to me with that on it. That would put the fear of Gd into people! Pew pew!
12:17 am
Okay, I feel less... manic now. Reading through Day Four's journal, I think I need to edit this stuff a lot because I explained some things in the wrong way and just for general errors. Maybe tomorrow after my only class I will start editing this week's work.
12:33 am
I feel like if I were to ever become a serial killer it would be when I was sleep deprived. That's more of a projected guess than a warning because I'd instantly apologize like everything else right now.
12:35 am
I'd feel devastated if my penis just broke off one day. Something that has devastated me, however, is that someone took the strawberry poptart out of the condom jar in the hall way.
I have to go to bed. This is hopefully the end of the sleep experiment please I hope it's over. I'll do a follow-up tomorrow sometime but in terms of getting on track this is more or less it.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Day 5: Over The Hill
1:55 am
Well I was right, I don't like waking up this late. Sometimes if I'm really tired I'll take a nap around 11 pm and then wake up between 1 am and 4 am, at which point my sleep schedule is all wonky. This is not the case this time at least, since I got my 9 hours and was supposed to be asleep, not crashing in the middle of the evening. One thing I've noticed though is that when I wake up midway through the "night" and check my clock to see how much longer I have to sleep, I get annoyed. I woke up in the dark, looked at the clock to see it said 10:20 pm and said, "Oh fuck me" and went back to sleep. For some reason this past week my instant reaction to seeing that I have to keep sleeping has been a source of annoyance.
I realized what I need to do is instead of just taking 12 hours away to see what time it is normally (as I did yesterday), I have to map it against a regular day by itself. For instance, I woke up at 1 am today, that's really 9 am according to the schedule I'm working toward.
One point of interest I've noticed is how my lifestyle permeates what time I want it to be. For instance, it's technically 10 am for me, I should get some breakfast. At the same time, however, I know it's 2 am and because of my regular hours I would think nothing of grabbing dinner at this hour. That's not helping me transition very well though, because I certainly would not want to eat a whole chicken for breakfast. On the other hand I've noticed that I'm more awake when I've woken up lately. Maybe, again, it's the whole, "I'm awake in the middle of the day, I should jump up and get my day started!" thing. Even if I'm a little tired lately, I have a lot of energy when I first wake up compared to waking up in the mornings. I know for a fact that I'm not a morning person because if I get 9-10 hours of sleep and wake up at noon versus 9 in the morning, I have much more energy when I wake up in the former. That's partially what's attributed to me staying up so late in the first place; I just naturally gravitate towards the later hours. I'm hoping that if I have breakfast I can fool myself into thinking that it's really the morning. Real morning, not 2 in the morning. One thing I can say is nice about this schedule right now is that I get the sunrise and sunset without waking up at 6 am every day, my earliest classes don't start until 9:30 am.
12:37 pm
I'm thinking about cutting this experiment down a couple of days. I'm not giving up by any means, but it goes into Monday and I don't want to be messing around the first day of the semester. Instead, I might try and stay up "later" tonight by a couple of hours. The general schedule has been "sleep 9, awake 15", but I might bump up the hours awake. I can't do too many more because otherwise I'll have to sleep in and this will all be for naught. I'm supposed to go to bed at 7 pm tonight, but if possible I'm going to try and ride it out until 10, jumping to tomorrow's schedule a day early. It's only three hours more, but it's also six more than yesterday. We'll see what happens. Maybe the madness will return and I'll just blow up.
3:41 am
Well this was a terrible idea. I couldn't keep my eyes open around 6 pm (was scheduled for 7) so I decided to go to sleep. My first plan was to go to bed at 7 and sleep until 5, making it 10 hours but bringing me closer to waking up at 9 am, the purpose to this whole thing.
Where am I now? I fell asleep an hour early and am now awake half an hour too early. I'm not quite fucked yet because I still have a day or two to fix this, but tomorrow I'm going to really have to stay up if this is going to work. Half an hour obviously isn't too bad, but I was hoping to sleep until 5, not 3:30. I'm hoping the stuff I have to do today, clean my room and pack to go back to school, will keep me awake until midnight tonight. I know that six hours in one day is going to be reeeally difficult, but I'm seeing some friends tonight and hopefully that will keep me awake. I might nap later today, but even when I'm on a regular schedule I hate naps. I might have to, on the other hand, purely because otherwise I'm going to be going to bed at 9 pm or something and I'm moving back to school at 10 pm. Yes, you probably see the problem here.
7:35 am
Oh well, I guess I'm up for the day. I'll just have to stay busy and see if I can't make the jump to sleeping around midnight tonight. This ought to be an interesting day!
Well I was right, I don't like waking up this late. Sometimes if I'm really tired I'll take a nap around 11 pm and then wake up between 1 am and 4 am, at which point my sleep schedule is all wonky. This is not the case this time at least, since I got my 9 hours and was supposed to be asleep, not crashing in the middle of the evening. One thing I've noticed though is that when I wake up midway through the "night" and check my clock to see how much longer I have to sleep, I get annoyed. I woke up in the dark, looked at the clock to see it said 10:20 pm and said, "Oh fuck me" and went back to sleep. For some reason this past week my instant reaction to seeing that I have to keep sleeping has been a source of annoyance.
I realized what I need to do is instead of just taking 12 hours away to see what time it is normally (as I did yesterday), I have to map it against a regular day by itself. For instance, I woke up at 1 am today, that's really 9 am according to the schedule I'm working toward.
One point of interest I've noticed is how my lifestyle permeates what time I want it to be. For instance, it's technically 10 am for me, I should get some breakfast. At the same time, however, I know it's 2 am and because of my regular hours I would think nothing of grabbing dinner at this hour. That's not helping me transition very well though, because I certainly would not want to eat a whole chicken for breakfast. On the other hand I've noticed that I'm more awake when I've woken up lately. Maybe, again, it's the whole, "I'm awake in the middle of the day, I should jump up and get my day started!" thing. Even if I'm a little tired lately, I have a lot of energy when I first wake up compared to waking up in the mornings. I know for a fact that I'm not a morning person because if I get 9-10 hours of sleep and wake up at noon versus 9 in the morning, I have much more energy when I wake up in the former. That's partially what's attributed to me staying up so late in the first place; I just naturally gravitate towards the later hours. I'm hoping that if I have breakfast I can fool myself into thinking that it's really the morning. Real morning, not 2 in the morning. One thing I can say is nice about this schedule right now is that I get the sunrise and sunset without waking up at 6 am every day, my earliest classes don't start until 9:30 am.
12:37 pm
I'm thinking about cutting this experiment down a couple of days. I'm not giving up by any means, but it goes into Monday and I don't want to be messing around the first day of the semester. Instead, I might try and stay up "later" tonight by a couple of hours. The general schedule has been "sleep 9, awake 15", but I might bump up the hours awake. I can't do too many more because otherwise I'll have to sleep in and this will all be for naught. I'm supposed to go to bed at 7 pm tonight, but if possible I'm going to try and ride it out until 10, jumping to tomorrow's schedule a day early. It's only three hours more, but it's also six more than yesterday. We'll see what happens. Maybe the madness will return and I'll just blow up.
3:41 am
Well this was a terrible idea. I couldn't keep my eyes open around 6 pm (was scheduled for 7) so I decided to go to sleep. My first plan was to go to bed at 7 and sleep until 5, making it 10 hours but bringing me closer to waking up at 9 am, the purpose to this whole thing.
Where am I now? I fell asleep an hour early and am now awake half an hour too early. I'm not quite fucked yet because I still have a day or two to fix this, but tomorrow I'm going to really have to stay up if this is going to work. Half an hour obviously isn't too bad, but I was hoping to sleep until 5, not 3:30. I'm hoping the stuff I have to do today, clean my room and pack to go back to school, will keep me awake until midnight tonight. I know that six hours in one day is going to be reeeally difficult, but I'm seeing some friends tonight and hopefully that will keep me awake. I might nap later today, but even when I'm on a regular schedule I hate naps. I might have to, on the other hand, purely because otherwise I'm going to be going to bed at 9 pm or something and I'm moving back to school at 10 pm. Yes, you probably see the problem here.
7:35 am
Oh well, I guess I'm up for the day. I'll just have to stay busy and see if I can't make the jump to sleeping around midnight tonight. This ought to be an interesting day!
Friday, January 6, 2012
Day Four: In Which I Begin My Madness
11:50 pm
So I decided to try something new today: I want to match my current schedule with a schedule I'd prefer to be on. Right now, as mentioned last night, I'm about 12 hours away from where I want to be. I woke up at 10 pm instead of 9 pm so I technically "slept in" an hour. Meals are all messed up because I'm awake at 10 pm, my body wants dinner and to jump-start my day because I know that the rest of the world has started its day. And the evening. And the night. I find it interesting that even though I've changed my cycle to where I am now, I still subconsciously know that it's night time. Obviously the sun is set and everything, but my body's cycle isn't different, I'm just awake and asleep at a different time.
I think that if I were to do this clock change again (maybe over the summer if necessary) I would do each change longer and probably with less jump. For this schedule I've been adding three hours every night, which is more than I add when I stay up more and more each night. The days that I could go from going to bed at 7 am and then going to bed at 1 pm, I was doing something that kept me awake. Last winter break I was making things out of Sculpy the whole night while watching about 8 Simon Pegg movies back to back. This time I'm attempting to run my normal schedule and adding hours willy-nilly. I believe this was a bit of a mistake. It's working out, mind you, but tomorrow I'm going to bed at 4 pm and I don't know how that is going to effect me. I'm interested to see the turning point though. Rather, when does it become late enough to go to bed? 4 pm is late in the afternoon, then 7 pm is too early in the evening. Maybe 10 pm or 11 pm is the turning point, because going to bed at 9 pm making me feel like a child. Anyway, as I said, I would probably do each shift longer, so instead of three hours added every day, add three hours and then do that for two or three days before adding more to let my body get used to it.
1:42 am
It's technically almost 2 in the afternoon for me and I don't know where my "morning" went. I woke up at 10, showered, tried to fix my dad's headphones (while cutting weeds I snipped through my dad's Bose headphones I was wearing. You read that right), made...breakfast? Lunch? It was "noon" but I'd only been up for two hours. I don't know if I should just let my mind slip into the illusion of the 12 hours change or continue to compare the two. It's kind of like when daylight savings ends or begins and everyone keeps saying that it's technically "whatever" time of day it is, forward or back. Either way it's quarter to two and I need food. I've technically been up for four hours and I haven't done much but little management things, which I suppose is what I'd do if up at 10 am anyway.
The part that really causes this separation for me is that while at home on the computer, I am able to slip into the illusion that I'm on the other side of the clock. Unfortunately I have things to do that cause me to interact with the outside world while still on this schedule. Today is the best (and really the only) example I have of this. At noon tomorrow I'm going to UIC to return some books from last semester and I have to be home by 4 pm to get to bed. Considering this from the flip side, that's like saying I'm going to UIC at midnight to return some books and I have to be home by 4 am. This is where it gets tricky. Looking at my schedule from the flip side, it makes no sense because it's crossing the Thursday/Friday threshold. Here's how I just explained it to a friend:
As of right now I'm technically 12 hours away from where I want to be in terms of awake/sleep, but it's not that I'm behind, I'm ahead. It's 2 am, but to me it's really like 2 pm if I were normal. Because I cross from Thursday to Friday but will be awake in a 12 hours difference and it's still Friday when I go to bed, it means my body thinks it's 2 pm *Thursday* afternoon, not Friday because in real-people time it's Thursday night, not Friday morning right now.
It's 2 am Friday the 6th, but according to my sleep schedule and my mindset, it's 2 pm Thursday afternoon, not Friday afternoon. I was under the impression that I was jumping 12 hours into Friday because Friday, but I realize now that I went forward, not back. This is particularly frightening because while I could just pretend it was Friday and not Thursday and go live somewhere in India (more or less), there is nowhere in the world that it is currently 2 pm Thursday. It doesn't seem like a big deal to you, but to me it's 2 pm Thursday afternoon and the sun is down. If I don't think about it too hard it's not that bad, but when I do put it all in perspective, I feel like I'm lost in time. I could laugh and say that I could call someone in Asia and they'd be awake, but let's say that I decided to shift my whole life to exist at 2 pm Thursday the 5th, no where else in the world is like that ( I don't think, I'm pretty sure). While it's not really 2 pm Thursday the 5th and I'm in the middle of the night transitioning to sleeping at midnight like a normal person, that means my body is technically a day behind, and I feel like I've lost something...somewhere. This doesn't matter too much because there's no real "end", but I feel like if say the world was going to end the 10th, I would have only gotten to the 9th and I feel I've lost something there.
Honestly if I think about all this too hard, it's pretty fucked up.
4:07 am
I always like to make a note of my 12-hour mark. I have 12 hours until I go to bed. I always like to try an project my mind out into the next stretch to imagine the amount of information, important or otherwise, that I'll be taking in. For instance in 4 hours once the city starts to wake up and start its day, there's a guy coming to check the oven because it hasn't been working correctly. Then at noon I'm heading over to UIC to return some books, as I've mentioned. That requires a walk, a bus ride, a train ride, seeing people around the campus, and then doing it all backwards and coming home, then sleeping. 12 hours until sleep!
6:00 am
I'm not sure where I stand at this point. The reason I started all this was because I can't turn my clock back comfortably enough so I decided to stay up later and later until I've gone all the way around. Instead, I've put myself 12 hours off from where I want to be and started moving back.
I've convinced myself that it's 6 pm Thursday evening and I'll be going to bed 4 am Friday morning (instead of 6 am and going to bed at 4 pm). The reason I don't know where I'm going is because after today that all gets messed up. Today is the only day that thinking in terms of a 12-hour clock works. Tomorrow if I try that I'd be thinking I was going to bed at 7 am and waking up at 4 pm. That's the opposite of what I want to do. After that I would think I was going to bed at 10 am and sleeping until 7 pm. By the time I get to the end I would think that I was going to bed at noon and sleeping until 9 pm. The trouble is that I've already done that; that's how I got here. The point I suppose I'm trying to make is that if I don't get out of this "just switch it 12 hours back!" mindset I don't know what will happen. Obviously it won't kill me, but I feel like I will be very confused until I got used to the new schedule. It's not a huge deal, but I thought that I had it all figured out for the rest of the week, instead it turns out pretending is only giving me the illusion of being back on the schedule I'm trying to escape.
1:20 pm
Man, if I thought being awake at "noon" with the sun down was weird, it's technically the middle of the night for me with the sun up! I like it though. I've spent a lot of this break awake at night and while I like it, it's almost like a whole change of scenery. It's so much more alive. The light's coming in through the windows, which makes me feel less secluded. Maybe it's because I can see the outside world and not just across the street. There are more people awake, which is nice too. I only have a couple more hours to go. I find it easier to stay up through the day and then sleep in the afternoon than stay up through the night when I don't really want to. I know sunlight helps you wake up, UV light tells your brain to rock out with its cock out. It's strange to think that this is the middle of my night and that I'll be going to bed in a few hours. With winter and all the sun will be going down as I go to bed, which means I got a sunrise and a sunset and a good 12 hours of sunlight to my brain. Even if I'm not outside taking it in, psychologically it feels good to see the day.
3:36 pm
Well I'm wrapping everything up. I'm going to just hang out for half an hour watching stuff on Youtube and then I'll head to bed. I've been finding that when I've been going to bed during the day I'm perfectly willing to just hang out until bedtime compared to the night or early morning when the last hour or two is a real stretch and a fight to stay awake. I could probably stay up a couple hours, akin to staying up to 3 in the morning on a regular schedule, but then I just have to make up for it tomorrow and I don't really want to deviate from my current plan. Plus, the later I go to bed in the afternoon, the later I wake up later tonight. I'm not too keen on waking up at 1 am, since I've spent all day awake, waking up in the middle of the night as everyone's going to bed sounds depressing. Is that how people see my habits?
So I decided to try something new today: I want to match my current schedule with a schedule I'd prefer to be on. Right now, as mentioned last night, I'm about 12 hours away from where I want to be. I woke up at 10 pm instead of 9 pm so I technically "slept in" an hour. Meals are all messed up because I'm awake at 10 pm, my body wants dinner and to jump-start my day because I know that the rest of the world has started its day. And the evening. And the night. I find it interesting that even though I've changed my cycle to where I am now, I still subconsciously know that it's night time. Obviously the sun is set and everything, but my body's cycle isn't different, I'm just awake and asleep at a different time.
I think that if I were to do this clock change again (maybe over the summer if necessary) I would do each change longer and probably with less jump. For this schedule I've been adding three hours every night, which is more than I add when I stay up more and more each night. The days that I could go from going to bed at 7 am and then going to bed at 1 pm, I was doing something that kept me awake. Last winter break I was making things out of Sculpy the whole night while watching about 8 Simon Pegg movies back to back. This time I'm attempting to run my normal schedule and adding hours willy-nilly. I believe this was a bit of a mistake. It's working out, mind you, but tomorrow I'm going to bed at 4 pm and I don't know how that is going to effect me. I'm interested to see the turning point though. Rather, when does it become late enough to go to bed? 4 pm is late in the afternoon, then 7 pm is too early in the evening. Maybe 10 pm or 11 pm is the turning point, because going to bed at 9 pm making me feel like a child. Anyway, as I said, I would probably do each shift longer, so instead of three hours added every day, add three hours and then do that for two or three days before adding more to let my body get used to it.
1:42 am
It's technically almost 2 in the afternoon for me and I don't know where my "morning" went. I woke up at 10, showered, tried to fix my dad's headphones (while cutting weeds I snipped through my dad's Bose headphones I was wearing. You read that right), made...breakfast? Lunch? It was "noon" but I'd only been up for two hours. I don't know if I should just let my mind slip into the illusion of the 12 hours change or continue to compare the two. It's kind of like when daylight savings ends or begins and everyone keeps saying that it's technically "whatever" time of day it is, forward or back. Either way it's quarter to two and I need food. I've technically been up for four hours and I haven't done much but little management things, which I suppose is what I'd do if up at 10 am anyway.
The part that really causes this separation for me is that while at home on the computer, I am able to slip into the illusion that I'm on the other side of the clock. Unfortunately I have things to do that cause me to interact with the outside world while still on this schedule. Today is the best (and really the only) example I have of this. At noon tomorrow I'm going to UIC to return some books from last semester and I have to be home by 4 pm to get to bed. Considering this from the flip side, that's like saying I'm going to UIC at midnight to return some books and I have to be home by 4 am. This is where it gets tricky. Looking at my schedule from the flip side, it makes no sense because it's crossing the Thursday/Friday threshold. Here's how I just explained it to a friend:
As of right now I'm technically 12 hours away from where I want to be in terms of awake/sleep, but it's not that I'm behind, I'm ahead. It's 2 am, but to me it's really like 2 pm if I were normal. Because I cross from Thursday to Friday but will be awake in a 12 hours difference and it's still Friday when I go to bed, it means my body thinks it's 2 pm *Thursday* afternoon, not Friday because in real-people time it's Thursday night, not Friday morning right now.
It's 2 am Friday the 6th, but according to my sleep schedule and my mindset, it's 2 pm Thursday afternoon, not Friday afternoon. I was under the impression that I was jumping 12 hours into Friday because Friday, but I realize now that I went forward, not back. This is particularly frightening because while I could just pretend it was Friday and not Thursday and go live somewhere in India (more or less), there is nowhere in the world that it is currently 2 pm Thursday. It doesn't seem like a big deal to you, but to me it's 2 pm Thursday afternoon and the sun is down. If I don't think about it too hard it's not that bad, but when I do put it all in perspective, I feel like I'm lost in time. I could laugh and say that I could call someone in Asia and they'd be awake, but let's say that I decided to shift my whole life to exist at 2 pm Thursday the 5th, no where else in the world is like that ( I don't think, I'm pretty sure). While it's not really 2 pm Thursday the 5th and I'm in the middle of the night transitioning to sleeping at midnight like a normal person, that means my body is technically a day behind, and I feel like I've lost something...somewhere. This doesn't matter too much because there's no real "end", but I feel like if say the world was going to end the 10th, I would have only gotten to the 9th and I feel I've lost something there.
Honestly if I think about all this too hard, it's pretty fucked up.
4:07 am
I always like to make a note of my 12-hour mark. I have 12 hours until I go to bed. I always like to try an project my mind out into the next stretch to imagine the amount of information, important or otherwise, that I'll be taking in. For instance in 4 hours once the city starts to wake up and start its day, there's a guy coming to check the oven because it hasn't been working correctly. Then at noon I'm heading over to UIC to return some books, as I've mentioned. That requires a walk, a bus ride, a train ride, seeing people around the campus, and then doing it all backwards and coming home, then sleeping. 12 hours until sleep!
6:00 am
I'm not sure where I stand at this point. The reason I started all this was because I can't turn my clock back comfortably enough so I decided to stay up later and later until I've gone all the way around. Instead, I've put myself 12 hours off from where I want to be and started moving back.
I've convinced myself that it's 6 pm Thursday evening and I'll be going to bed 4 am Friday morning (instead of 6 am and going to bed at 4 pm). The reason I don't know where I'm going is because after today that all gets messed up. Today is the only day that thinking in terms of a 12-hour clock works. Tomorrow if I try that I'd be thinking I was going to bed at 7 am and waking up at 4 pm. That's the opposite of what I want to do. After that I would think I was going to bed at 10 am and sleeping until 7 pm. By the time I get to the end I would think that I was going to bed at noon and sleeping until 9 pm. The trouble is that I've already done that; that's how I got here. The point I suppose I'm trying to make is that if I don't get out of this "just switch it 12 hours back!" mindset I don't know what will happen. Obviously it won't kill me, but I feel like I will be very confused until I got used to the new schedule. It's not a huge deal, but I thought that I had it all figured out for the rest of the week, instead it turns out pretending is only giving me the illusion of being back on the schedule I'm trying to escape.
1:20 pm
Man, if I thought being awake at "noon" with the sun down was weird, it's technically the middle of the night for me with the sun up! I like it though. I've spent a lot of this break awake at night and while I like it, it's almost like a whole change of scenery. It's so much more alive. The light's coming in through the windows, which makes me feel less secluded. Maybe it's because I can see the outside world and not just across the street. There are more people awake, which is nice too. I only have a couple more hours to go. I find it easier to stay up through the day and then sleep in the afternoon than stay up through the night when I don't really want to. I know sunlight helps you wake up, UV light tells your brain to rock out with its cock out. It's strange to think that this is the middle of my night and that I'll be going to bed in a few hours. With winter and all the sun will be going down as I go to bed, which means I got a sunrise and a sunset and a good 12 hours of sunlight to my brain. Even if I'm not outside taking it in, psychologically it feels good to see the day.
3:36 pm
Well I'm wrapping everything up. I'm going to just hang out for half an hour watching stuff on Youtube and then I'll head to bed. I've been finding that when I've been going to bed during the day I'm perfectly willing to just hang out until bedtime compared to the night or early morning when the last hour or two is a real stretch and a fight to stay awake. I could probably stay up a couple hours, akin to staying up to 3 in the morning on a regular schedule, but then I just have to make up for it tomorrow and I don't really want to deviate from my current plan. Plus, the later I go to bed in the afternoon, the later I wake up later tonight. I'm not too keen on waking up at 1 am, since I've spent all day awake, waking up in the middle of the night as everyone's going to bed sounds depressing. Is that how people see my habits?
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